ummm can I call this Day 1 again??

ok today was a good day.

I enjoyed a most delicious Eggcel smoothie, a simple one, with 1cup Eggcel with fresh pineapple, blended, and devoured. That was breakfast. A great start!

Then an early lunch with my beautiful neighbour from Papamoa, and we went to my favourite local cafe, Luscious. A super yummy green salad was enjoyed with a trim flat white. And not a green lettuce salad, but one with brussell sprouts, courgettes, beans and other green veges I can't remember. But it was goooood. And so was the coffee ;)

The afternoon was all about the awesome Thermomix demo I was given at home. I'm going to become a consultant so I can share my love of this truly amazing kitchen tool. Why buy almond butter when you can make your own? Raw food now can be made super easy. I was drooling when Yvonne, the Thermomix expert was explaining how to make a raw cheesecake ... delish! SO yeah, if you're keen to see one of these puppies in action, let me know! Yeah, helps if you're in Auckland!

I had half a protein bar today, one of my own amahzing Honest Food Protein Bars. I created these purely to give consumers a choice. The choice of a real protein bar. Grain free, dairy free, with no added sugar. And high in protein as well, there's at least 25g protein in a 50g bar. They are so fulling, which is why I could only eat half! My favourite is the Heilala Vanilla Almond. Heaven!

We went out to dinner, to our local fav Thai. I did have some rice, I must admit, and I am paying for it now, laying in bed, writing this blog with a good bloat going on. Ugh. So next time, no rice.

So, all up it's been a great Monday, and a great first day back to basics!! How was your Monday?

xx


PS Lots of pics taken today, posted on my Instagram account. Do follow, check 'em out and heart x

What the hell happened?

I haven't posted for a week, and I could say it's because I've been so damn busy hitting the gym, juicing my greens, making Eggcel smoothies, and just being plain awesome. But I haven't. I fucked up. I fell hard. My tank hit empty and I felt like I've been just in a messed up pattern of just going through the motions, having no breakfast, eating something small but healthy for lunch and then having absolute crap food for dinner. Oh with dessert.

Yeah. It's been like that, and I have been so ashamed to blog, to admit I fell hard. But like anything that's not good for you, you realise it (sooner or later) and know this is the wrong path. And I am totally on the path of not giving a shit, and there's no excuse for it. None at all. So I've committed to getting back to basics, again. I didn't say this was going to be all glitzy and happy happy, ta da here are some abs. Hell no. This is my real life here. It used to be easy for me. It was what they say down these parts, a piece of piss (excuse the language, but yeah, I can swear a time or two!).

My lows have been more common and longer than my highs, and it's time to put a stop to it. Little physical activity with shitty sugary carby foods just make it worse, and the fog thicker. So enough is enough.

So, if you're still following, thank you. And please do keep bearing witness to my failures and successes, as the successes are to come, I can guarantee it. I have no one but myself to blame for my lack of commitment to my goal. I am totally over feeling bloaty and dead tired after overdosing on carbs. I have put on over 1kg of the 2.5kg I did lose in 2 weeks. So I'm still winning, just not in the lead, kinda more like 4th place. If this was a race.

I have decided that to keep myself on the path I will blog every night, no matter what. So be warned, this could mean a post with just not much going on. But hey, that's ok right?

And if you too are struggling, I'd love to hear about your journey. You can post a comment here, or on my Honest Food Co facebook page. I will Instagram the shit out of my meals, my workouts, anything and everything that keeps me on task.

And if you see me lingering outside KFC or the like, tell me to back the fuck away. Thank you xxx

uh yeah ... that feeling

Where has the time gone?

It is now Monday, 15th April. Almost 2 weeks in on my 30 day back to basics challenge.

As you know, I've been mainly by my nana's bedside at the hospital. My very brave nana passed away last Wednesday afternoon. If you are in Auckland, and remember that burst of rain last Wednesday when the heavens seemed to have opened up ... yep, that was the gates of heaven opening up for my nana.

Since then, the rest is blurry. Too many tears, too much heartache. I think I'm all cried out to be honest. My cousin and I took it upon ourselves to organise our nana's funeral, so our mums could mourn and not have to worry about the details.

We had family from Aussie come over to farewell Nana and it was so good to connect with them face to face (instead of the usual Facebook time).

Nana's send off on Saturday morning was just perfect. I know we did her proud.

Through it all I was standing strong to my goal, and keeping off the wheat and other nasties. But I did falter a few times. On purpose. Not through any emotional stress, even though there was enough of that, but just because I was hungry and honestly didn't have the energy to create a clean meal for myself, and also hadn't been food shopping the entire time other then ducking in to the supermarket to get food for my daughter for kindy.

So we didn't eat superbly well throughout this time. We didn't eat horrifically bad either. Just in between.

I ate bread with my free range chicken and vegetable soup for example. I had a few bites of the most divine chocolate brownie from Cafe Luscious in Onehunga. Don't regret that at all.

I also ate 2 burgers and a handful of fries throughout the past 2 weeks and had one dessert. Not bad. I'm not going to beat myself up about it. They were delicious! And they also didn't make me want to chuck it all in and eat more crap. So I'm happy about that.

I think you can see the difference?

I'm down 2kg, definitely not where I expected to be halfway through the 30days, but I also didn't expect to be grieving for my beautiful nana.

I'm hitting the gym tomorrow. I can't bloody wait. It's been too long, and the gym and I used to have a beautiful relationship, only short visits, at least 3 times a week, but man they were goooood times. I'm looking forward to that again. Hope Jett's haven't blacklisted me ;)

My favourite local cafe, here is the delicious chicken soup ... and a piece of ciabatta

We only had a few bites each, and the rest was left ... oh the horror!

This is why I love Cafe Luscious! Oh and the maybe could be spanish woman behind the counter. She makes the place!

Day 2 & 3

My nan is in hospital. Heart and lung failure due to her battle with cancer over the past 2 years. It sucks. Bad. I didn't want this though to be used as an excuse to go off course, so before heading to the hospital early yesterday morning I stopped into good ol' Pak'n'Save supermarket and bought some tuna, chicken, and salads. Oh and a bottle of water.

The day was a haze. Emotional rollercoaster, was my nan going to survive the hour, the morning, the afternoon ... the evening? She's a tough bloody cookie that one. We are made from strong stock that's for sure.

Drive home through Auckland Domain

Happy to say nan did survive the night, and is still battling on today. She has been made as comfortable as possible, and we honestly don't know how long she can fight back. Doctors said she wouldn't make it past midday yesterday. That's my nan xx

love black beans

This was Day 2. All day at the hospital with my nan. Eggcel for breakfast and 2 coffees
throughout the day until dinner, where I had chicken breast and more beetroot salad.

This beetroot salad was delicious. The chicken in the can, not so much,
but proud of myself for choosing this over Subway or Muffin Break at the hospital.

Today was about my nan getting as comfortable as possible. This helps.

I do feel less bloated and heavy. My mum even noticed it in my puku (for my non kiwi readers, that's maori for stomach) and face. YUSS.

Home for a sleep and back at the hospital in the morning. For my customers, I'm sorry if your order hasn't reached you yet. Please bear with us, as they will all go out on Monday.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart

B x

Let's do this!

I've resurrected my old blog. Ironic really. I'm about to resurrect my "old body and mindset" as well. Well that's the plan.

What's this all about and why am I blogging about it? Considering no one will probably read it anyway, it's more about committing 100% to this. There is no going back, no failing. I NEED to get back to basics. I'm the creator of Eggcel, (google it) and more recently, The Honest Food Company. I am damn good at what I do and that's helping people look and feel good. And now it's time for me to be honest with myself, as well as my consumers. I help so many others regain their life back, throw sugar under the train and just get back to basics, eating clean, high protein, working out and just being able to look in the mirror and smile. Do I do that? No, not now. Not in years. Yep over 4 years I have ignored everything that I say to others. And there is no excuse. Yes I had a baby (4 freaking years ago), yes I was stressed out for awhile there, and had some shit happen. Who can say their life hasn't had some kinks in it. But it's time to take control.

I want to be able to blog about my experience, and prove to myself that I can do this. That anyone can do this. It won't be easy, hell I wish it can be, but I know it won't be. Not after this long of eating crap food whenever I felt like it (not when I was hungry, just when I FELT like it). I want to also share my insights about emotional eating. I know alot. I preach it, I teach it, I help others. Funny how I never thought I deserved that help myself. But now I am. Self-help at it's finest here.

I've moved back to Auckland, after being away almost 3 years. I don't regret the move. I guess it needed to be done. Without Papamoa, I wouldn't have found Venus (best damn business group ever), I wouldn't have launched The Honest Food Co. and our most awesome protein bars, and I wouldn't have gone through the worst time in my life. Which has brought me to here. Now.

So here goes. Wish me luck! And please share, and discuss. Follow my business pages: Eggcel and The Honest Food Co. And if you are going through the same sort of resurrection, let me know. Let's do this together xx

Here I am now. My before pic you could say.

7 year wedding anniversary, March 2013

I went and checked out Jett's in Royal Oak today, after going to Bakers Delight to pick up some choc chip hot x easter buns! No staff as it's a public holiday. Doh. Will also see how far Club Physical 3 Kings is as well. Used to love CP, trained many a folk at the K'Rd branch back in the day when I was a member, and the trainers and owner allowed me to bring in my clients. mmm .. wonder if they'll do that at 3 Kings ;)